Last Day of 2006

Time flies... Another 22 hrs later it'll be a Whole New Year! I wish this will be a much better year for everybody. Went to colour my hair today. Black with a blue tone shine. Was told it'll be more obvious after a few wash. Bit only obvious under the sun. Cant wait to see the colour, always wanted to have blue hair. hee...

Technology is really amazing, cant imagine I'm printing photos from my computer now. Was kinda frustrated with the printer just now why it wouldnt print halfway thru. Then I realsied my cartridge has not more ink. Am very glad that there is an extra cartridge else I'll have to wait till tmw then can continue printing. Yeah! BEE... dun ask me what I'm printing... not telling you.

Really miss you BEE... cant wait to spend another day with you. Tonight will be my company's dinner and dance. My first dinner and dance! Woo hoo!!! And I'm wearing my favourite country's costume, THAILAND!!! Hope it'll be fun! Only regret is my BEE wont be by my side. And I cant be the first to wish Him HAPPY BIRTHDAY when the clock strike twelve :(

Dearest BEE, a whole new year, will pray for you. Hope you are blessed with good health and prosperity. Even if the Tarot cards says you might risk losing everything, you'll never lose me :)

I Thank You

For making me cry
This time, Only In my heart,
Because it is too painful to even cry out loud

Thank you
For all the promises of staying happy and healthy together
What's the point of talking so much when it will not come true

Thank you
For not willing to take care of your health
Guess that is why you want to love me till death
So that you can go and left me lonely and miserable on this earth

Thank you
For teaching me to be obedient
Yet you are not doing what you say

Thank you
For constantly reminding yourself to be positive
When you choose to escape from reality

And Thank you
For calling the person who love you most... A Nagger

Care Bears

Today, my female colleague said that I look like grumpy bear from the care bears. hehe... Few years ago, my lecturer kept telling me that she finds me very familiar, that I look like somebody. And she finally realised... that my face looks like one kind of animal. *biaaaa*

*itch* *itch*

Another rainy day... wish I could sleep longer this morning.

Been having this itch for two weeks and it is getting worse. Now my whole body, except my face, gosh fortunately, is itchy! Doc said might be that my office air is dry. I better start applying moisturizer during work. Had an injection and some cream. *still itchy leh* Hope it'll get better by tmw, else my ugly body will have more marks le.

It's raining so heavily outside, and BEE is still clubbing. And another 2-3 nights of parties for him over this weekend. My only worry is him drinking too much. The last few times when he got really drunk and alcohol poison, my heart really skipped a beat. How would I not worry? If he ever collapse on the street, will anybody even care to help? If only I have a pair of 千里眼, I would be able to watch out for him. We promised each other to live healthy in order to have a happy long life time together. Hope BEE can stay true to his promise too. And hopefully cut down on his smoking too.

Time to report to dreamland.... zzz

A tribute to Anita Mui

Tonight was a night I long waited for, to attend the charity performance by a friend, who can sing like Anita Mui. It was a good show, very good and sincere effort by the organiser and performers.

It has been awhile since i stepped into a pub. Alot of 感触 tonight. Especially when I know that these are places my BEE patrons very often. I do not object my BEE to go clubbing, especially when this is his favourite activity. It is ppl around him, seems like everybody who gets to know him, will definitely fall for him or wants to flirt with him, cruise him. Yes he is good looking and has a nice body. Cant convince me that they like him becoz of his good personality, becoz I know they don't. Even his so call "good friends" want to go to bed with him. These ppl are so fake, so selfish and self centered. How many of them really care about his health and his life? Even though I know my BEE loves me truly, I really cant help but it does stresses me. And BEE, pls dun try hidding things from me becoz you worry I'll feel stress. Becoz I'll get more stress if I know you are. Dun forget I'm very sensitive. Anyway I ONLY care about my BEE's life, his health and his happiness.

The Tarot card reading was very accurate.

My Past 6 months - I was very unhappy, I wasnt enjoying life, i hate waking up, dragging myself to work. Finding all kind of excuses to get out. Kept searching for my direction in life.

Now - The card says I feel bored, unhappy and wanting to get out of my current lifestyle. hmm... I thought it was not so accurate after all, till BEE enlightens me... true... I am contented with my job now, but relationship wise.... I have never regretted having my BEE in my life. It is just our "current status", yes i really wish it'll be over soon. I felt like living in the dark. I am not complaining. I just hope that this day, very soon will arrive, and my BEE will reach his goal and succeed in whatever he wanted. I know he is forced to do what he has to do. And he does it for me too. Having someone who is willing to sacrifice so much for me, what else can I ask for?

This evening when the song 亲密爱人 was sang, I almost cried, trying very hard to hold back my tears. I was thinking, 有情人, 几时才能终成眷属呢? I remembered my BEE wanted me to sing this song during the marine parade canival. That night at the karaoke when we were deciding what song to sing, he held my hands and looked at me throughout, while i was trying to remember the lyrics for the song. I can never forget that lovely smile.

Another song that is very meaningful to me, of coz, it is 抱紧眼前人. This song, he taught me to sing line by line. And the song is so nice, that I am able to sing it by myself after just one try. From then on, it became one of my favourites.

BEE, you are a very beautiful man with a very beautiful heart. Thank you for walking life with me. I treasure you, I appreciate whatever you do for me. I look forward to spending the rest of my life with you. I wish you HAPPY HEALTHY and LUCKY!



Good night! *Muacks*

Dearest BEE

Once again I thank you for giving me the most wonderful time I ever had in my life. And I believe this will be better and better the way we treasure and appreciate each other. Like we have said, the level we are experiencing now is much much better than our honeymoon period.

Soon, we will be celebrating our 2nd birthdays together. Yeah! by the way, there is a slight delay in the making of your secret christmas card, you should be able to receive it before your Birthday! hee...

香烟爱上火柴就注定被伤害…
不要轻易说爱, 许下的承诺就是欠下的债…
老鼠对猫说我爱你, 猫说你走开, 老鼠流泪走开...
谁也没看见老鼠走后猫也流了一滴泪…其实有一种爱情叫做放弃…
风筝一辈子只会为一根线冒险…
女人善变的是脸, 男人善变的是心…
在爱情的世界里, 没有谁对不起谁, 只有谁不懂珍惜谁…
遇到了真爱就不要轻易说离开…
要记得抓紧爱情, 而不是抓伤彼此的感情…
不要忘了真爱难寻…

Snowflake

My BEE love this...

Unforgetable

18 Aug 2005, you emailed me this song and told me to learn it well. At first, I really thought that the lyrics was describing us, so real, so true. It was the theme song of the first TVB drama serial you told me to watch, "Point of no return".

22 Aug 2005, I bought the VCDs of this tv serial. I cried after the show started for less than a minute. It was playing the theme song. Every bits reminded me of our relationship. That afternoon, I insisted on seeing you. We had a great time, even though we only met about three hours.

That evening, I received the first gift from you, a jade pendant, which is still my favourite till today. In the taxi, I was hoping that you would hold my hand. To my surprise, you did! And I'm glad... you never let go of my hand since then :)

Thank You!

I always think that I am a very lucky guy, but after knowing you, I truly experience the meaning of "Lucky".

BEE, thank you for all the love and care you gave me. Thank you for all the gifts that you bought me which some of them are very meaningful and precious to me. You are spoiling me so much. I appreciate EVERYTHING you did for me, all the happiness that you brought me. Thank you!!!

Yeah! Like I always hope for, we are wearing the same thing! Same earring, some handphone, same jeans, same sandals, same wallet... and hopefully someday soon, same watch. Which I look forward most... you should know why :))

POM RUK KOON

Love or Lust?

Absence makes the Heart grow Fonder when two people are truly in Love

Absence makes the Heart Wander

when people are not in Love

but only in Lust