Casual Sunday

Yes you were right Tom! There are lots we been thru after all these years, people we met, some still in our life, some are gone, there is a story for each. Friendship and Love is something that we cannot measure, 患难见真情, is the time we really see true faces. We all not young anymore, it is good to know we still have friends around us who we can talk out truly. You know these people will be around to hold you on when you are down. Something that money cannot buy. Priceless.

Everybody has a different character, it's that sparks that connect us together. I always believe that there are so many billions of people on this earth and we are fated to be friends or lover, we must not take each other for granted. I am still learning to appreciate people, learning to be true, to be sincere, honest with feelings. We do not know what will happen tomorrow, so I want to be expressive to my friends, to my family, my lover, to tell you I love you all in case I do not have chance anymore. Life is short, I do not want to waste it or have any regrets.

爱过知情重
醉过知酒浓
花开花谢终是空
缘份不停留像春风来又走

Maybe you guys will think I am too free to think of all these things, but I did list down my top ten friends you know. hahaha... You should know if you are in the list. But if you are not in top ten, maybe you are top 15 leh... hahaha...

Yeah!!! So excited we are finally going for the HK trip. First time with friends (without lover). Bee, although I wish you can come with me. Nevermind, I am looking forward to our dream trip, you promise that you will bring me to see Plum Blossom :)

A very pleasant surprise, I met my BMT buddy who I have lost touch so many years! Someone who I still truly respect, because he has given me so much support when I was so down during my BMT. Thank you buddy!

Love all those oldies songs from 凤飞飞，邓丽君. These are really songs that you wont get tired of listening and somemore so meaningful but humble. And it brings me lots of memories. I know I like to think... like you guys say I always 2046... sometimes its a good thing too you know. When I was down, I recall all the good memories, and it makes me smile, it reminds me to be positive and keeps me going.

Good Night

I love the weather tonight, so cooling, so december. Cool breeze blowing onto my face from my kitchen window, as if it is end of the year now.

It has been so long sinced I have a great and relaxing night. Lying lazily on the floor, watching one of my favourite dvds "Kate and Leopard". A very peaceful night to spend. Too bad I was feeling really sleepy after a long day work today, despite my laundry still in the washing machine, I have to switch off the tv half way through the show and took a short nap on my cozy and cooling bed. Fell asleep so quickly, when I still have a list of to-do-lists running through my head.

Most importantly, tonight you made me smile again, smiled deeply from my heart. Everything will be so perfect... if you were here tonight.

就向流星许个心愿, 让你知道我爱你

我要控制我自己

不会让谁看见我哭泣

装作漠不关心你

不愿想起你

怪自己没有勇气

心痛得无法呼吸

找不到你留下的痕迹

眼睁睁的看着你

却无能为力

任你消失在世界的尽头

找不到坚强的理由

再也感觉不到你的温柔

告诉我星空在那头

那里是否有尽头

Sisteration

Tonight was another nice little gathering. It has been so long since we have talked about introducing Justin and Irvin to Jackie, Thomas and Derrick. Still yet to meet out 3rd sister, Melvin. Finally to get to know each other last week. Yeah! Now we have more common friends. It was great! And of coz Mahjong kakis too...

It was a great night.Am looking forward to another great outing with you guys!

A little mood swing

Yesterday was all gloomy day... all started with my nuisance sms early in the morning. I was holding back already knowing that I will make you unhappy but I still cannot resist to send out that sms... just becoz of that "breathe" （咽不下的一口气）This time there is no argument, I guess like you said, we have been over this issue again and again. Already nothing to debate or comfort anymore. We both have our own point of view and for the rest of the day, it was silence.



All is back to normal today. The sun is out shining, rainbow after the rain. A nice surprise too, u sms me that you are back home after ur gym. hmm... u have not done that for a long long time. *happy*



If you notice, the weather these two days are the exact opposite from our mood :)

没有你的日子，200多天了。。。

When there is no expectation, no hope, there will be no disappointment. I already try to not look forward to anything. Living my days just to past time, losing interest in almost everything, hoping time will speed like rocket and back to the old happy days soon.

I want to say sorry to all my friends. I know you all care about me in every way. I love to spend my time with you guys because there is always laughter and happiness. But sometimes I really just want some time alone to think about things and not talk about anything. I know you all will understand.

【山口百恵～引退記念コンサート】

She is so glamorous!!!

Emotional

Guess it is because I like to put myself in the story of the song, that is why I am always so emotional when I listen to songs.

This is another of my favourite songs that always make me tears.

梦醒了

我想起你描述梦想天堂的样子
手指著远方画出一栋一栋房子
你傻笑的表情又那么诚实
所有的信任是从那一刻... 开始

你给我一个到那片天空的地址
只因为太高摔得我血流不止
带著伤口回到当初背叛的城市
唯一收容我的却是自己... 的影子

想跟著你一辈子... 至少这样的世界没有现实
想赖著你一辈子... 做你感情里最后一个天使

如果梦醒时还在一起
请容许我们相依为命
绚烂也许一时 平淡走完一世
是我选择你这样的男子

就怕梦醒时已分两地
谁也挽不回这分离
爱恨可以不分 责任可以不问
天亮了我还是不是... 你的女人

Pain

We are a couple, I can feel how frustrated you are. I feel the pain in you too but what is more painful here is knowing that I cannot help to stop all these that you are going through.

I failed to keep to my words to make you happy in the past few weeks and yet I added more stress to you by demanding for this and that. From today onwards, you will only see my happy face. I will let you have you time and space whenever you need it. It is really easier to say than do. I will do my duty :)

You have always told me, we will see the rainbow soon. I will look forward for this day to come soon :)

PLAY

Just came back from Play. Glad that everybody is home safely.

It has been about 9 months that I have not been to clubbing. It was fun to have everybody there. First of all, Tom and Jackie, hope you guys have a great anniversary celebration. Enjoy your stay at Conrad, I miss the times staying in the hotel too. so relax. Melvin, congratulations!!! So happy to know that you are attached. I wish to see you and Ivan celebrating your anniversaries in the years to come! Derrick, I hope you will feel better when you wake up. I know how you feel and that's why I hate drinking. Took lots of photos tonight, cant wait to see them.

Had diarrhea for the past three days and finally feeling better tonight. Though my stomach still bloated at times. Hope I will get well soon.

Time flies... people like us are all facing the same problem when we get older. Jackie, dun fear and dun think too much. If your family really finds out about you, face it bravely. Tell them the truth and I am sure they will accept you. If you deny it, your family might feel even more awkward in future. Let them help you. You are a family, they wont abandon you. Whatever it is, let nature takes it course. I am happy to know that you and Tom always wanted to share my unhappiness. I understand you care. Dun worry if I really facing some serious issue I will definitely consult you guys. For the time being, everything is still fine.

Bee, everything was great tonight except I really wish you were there with me. Holding me and dancing with me. I will look forward for that day to come again.

Wish all of you have a good rest.