I had enough!!!

Enough of myself! It's time to move on. You are right... no matter wat it is... no matter what happened... nothing will be changed for the time being. I can do whatever I want now. Nobody will stop me. It is all up to myself.

Had a really depressing week. Guess no matter who the winner is, we are already badly hurt after this battle. Had a frightening night, nightmare after nightmare. Couldn't wait to go online today to find out the meaning of those dreams. You might say I am superstitious, no I am not, just curious, but somehow, it's quite accurate. Those in pink are the interpretation.

First, I saw my auntie stood outside my room window, she was possessed and her body was glowing in lights, then the spirit wanted to possess me too. (To dream that you are possessed, represents your state of helplessness and not being in control of things.)

Later at my door steps, I saw huge rats eating up small mice, bloody scene. (To see rats in your dream, signifies feelings of doubts, guilt and/or envy. You are having unworthy thoughts that you are keeping to yourself but are eating you up inside. Alternatively, it denotes repulsion. To see mice in your dream, symbolizes domestic problems, business loss, deceit, and insincere friends. It represents minor problems in which you are spending too much time dwelling on. To dream that you or someone is eating mice, indicates that there is something that has been nagging your conscience and you need to get off your chest. )

And I received news of 3 friends die one after another, after we were back from travelling, total 8 of us. Then I was at a place full of washing machines, weird shape of washine machines, big and small. (To see or use a washing machine in your dream, suggests that you need to resolve past issues and old problems in order to make a clean start for yourself.)

And i have friends arrested, then I was trying to go down a stairs of ladder that the steps were so small, and then it drops all the way down till someone held my ladder below. (To dream that you are climbing down a ladder, suggests that you are escaping from your spiritual responsibilities. It is an indication of much disappointments. To dream that someone is holding a ladder for you, signifies that you will find success and rise to prominence with the support of others.)

And then I woke up... shivering. Couldn't go to work. So I am on medical leave today. And here writing...

My future lies on my own hand.