没有你的日子，200多天了。。。

When there is no expectation, no hope, there will be no disappointment. I already try to not look forward to anything. Living my days just to past time, losing interest in almost everything, hoping time will speed like rocket and back to the old happy days soon.

I want to say sorry to all my friends. I know you all care about me in every way. I love to spend my time with you guys because there is always laughter and happiness. But sometimes I really just want some time alone to think about things and not talk about anything. I know you all will understand.

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She is so glamorous!!!

Emotional

Guess it is because I like to put myself in the story of the song, that is why I am always so emotional when I listen to songs.

This is another of my favourite songs that always make me tears.

梦醒了

我想起你描述梦想天堂的样子
手指著远方画出一栋一栋房子
你傻笑的表情又那么诚实
所有的信任是从那一刻... 开始

你给我一个到那片天空的地址
只因为太高摔得我血流不止
带著伤口回到当初背叛的城市
唯一收容我的却是自己... 的影子

想跟著你一辈子... 至少这样的世界没有现实
想赖著你一辈子... 做你感情里最后一个天使

如果梦醒时还在一起
请容许我们相依为命
绚烂也许一时 平淡走完一世
是我选择你这样的男子

就怕梦醒时已分两地
谁也挽不回这分离
爱恨可以不分 责任可以不问
天亮了我还是不是... 你的女人

Pain

We are a couple, I can feel how frustrated you are. I feel the pain in you too but what is more painful here is knowing that I cannot help to stop all these that you are going through.

I failed to keep to my words to make you happy in the past few weeks and yet I added more stress to you by demanding for this and that. From today onwards, you will only see my happy face. I will let you have you time and space whenever you need it. It is really easier to say than do. I will do my duty :)

You have always told me, we will see the rainbow soon. I will look forward for this day to come soon :)

PLAY

Just came back from Play. Glad that everybody is home safely.

It has been about 9 months that I have not been to clubbing. It was fun to have everybody there. First of all, Tom and Jackie, hope you guys have a great anniversary celebration. Enjoy your stay at Conrad, I miss the times staying in the hotel too. so relax. Melvin, congratulations!!! So happy to know that you are attached. I wish to see you and Ivan celebrating your anniversaries in the years to come! Derrick, I hope you will feel better when you wake up. I know how you feel and that's why I hate drinking. Took lots of photos tonight, cant wait to see them.

Had diarrhea for the past three days and finally feeling better tonight. Though my stomach still bloated at times. Hope I will get well soon.

Time flies... people like us are all facing the same problem when we get older. Jackie, dun fear and dun think too much. If your family really finds out about you, face it bravely. Tell them the truth and I am sure they will accept you. If you deny it, your family might feel even more awkward in future. Let them help you. You are a family, they wont abandon you. Whatever it is, let nature takes it course. I am happy to know that you and Tom always wanted to share my unhappiness. I understand you care. Dun worry if I really facing some serious issue I will definitely consult you guys. For the time being, everything is still fine.

Bee, everything was great tonight except I really wish you were there with me. Holding me and dancing with me. I will look forward for that day to come again.

Wish all of you have a good rest.