Photos!!!!

Beautiful SceneryI like these two photos, looks like movie poster that tells a story of each character, if you look closely at each of our movement or expression :P

And this is "The Ring"..... ?
Fantastic Four VS The Zig Zag Monster
The Drama Queens...
and then....
and then....
Eat Dim Sum
First Day in our hotel room
My favourite.... desserts!!!!
One night in Hong kong

Little Tiger

Bee bought me this little tiger! So cute and innocent looking! :)

I bought the two little dinos when I was in Hong Kong.

I had enough!!!

Enough of myself! It's time to move on. You are right... no matter wat it is... no matter what happened... nothing will be changed for the time being. I can do whatever I want now. Nobody will stop me. It is all up to myself.

Had a really depressing week. Guess no matter who the winner is, we are already badly hurt after this battle. Had a frightening night, nightmare after nightmare. Couldn't wait to go online today to find out the meaning of those dreams. You might say I am superstitious, no I am not, just curious, but somehow, it's quite accurate. Those in pink are the interpretation.

First, I saw my auntie stood outside my room window, she was possessed and her body was glowing in lights, then the spirit wanted to possess me too. (To dream that you are possessed, represents your state of helplessness and not being in control of things.)

Later at my door steps, I saw huge rats eating up small mice, bloody scene. (To see rats in your dream, signifies feelings of doubts, guilt and/or envy. You are having unworthy thoughts that you are keeping to yourself but are eating you up inside. Alternatively, it denotes repulsion. To see mice in your dream, symbolizes domestic problems, business loss, deceit, and insincere friends. It represents minor problems in which you are spending too much time dwelling on. To dream that you or someone is eating mice, indicates that there is something that has been nagging your conscience and you need to get off your chest. )

And I received news of 3 friends die one after another, after we were back from travelling, total 8 of us. Then I was at a place full of washing machines, weird shape of washine machines, big and small. (To see or use a washing machine in your dream, suggests that you need to resolve past issues and old problems in order to make a clean start for yourself.)

And i have friends arrested, then I was trying to go down a stairs of ladder that the steps were so small, and then it drops all the way down till someone held my ladder below. (To dream that you are climbing down a ladder, suggests that you are escaping from your spiritual responsibilities. It is an indication of much disappointments. To dream that someone is holding a ladder for you, signifies that you will find success and rise to prominence with the support of others.)

And then I woke up... shivering. Couldn't go to work. So I am on medical leave today. And here writing...

My future lies on my own hand.

Still stucked in this...

sad and lonely world...

so empty....

10 years anniversary!!!

Aug 1997, I officially stepped out of the closet. What a good 10 years I been through, seen the best and the worst in this circle. Of course I knew that there are more to learn and experience in life. I am happy that it is the good people that I met over those 10 years, so lucky compared to a lot of other PLUs.

Lucky that I have these are good friends who are around me. Yesterday I went to Sentosa with my buddies. Really really enjoyed myself, played and laughed so hard! I wish we have more chances like this. I am looking forward already.

And thanks god, I met a really great guy who has a great loving heart, a guy who taught me the meaning of monogamous relationship and loyalty in love, shown me the ugly side of this circle, and most importantly, provided me the greatest love of all. Thank you Bee! By the way, glad that we are celebrating our 2nd anniversary this month too! :)

We are always hiding so many things in life, just for the sake of not wanting to hurt people's feeling, but ended up hurting ourselve more. I am glad that I decided not to hide my identity 10 years ago. And now, even some of my closest kins knew about me and they still love me as they used to be. No regrets already. I hope everybody around will be healthy and happy. I hope Bee will be healthy and happy forever. May our dreams come true soon.

Casual Sunday

Yes you were right Tom! There are lots we been thru after all these years, people we met, some still in our life, some are gone, there is a story for each. Friendship and Love is something that we cannot measure, 患难见真情, is the time we really see true faces. We all not young anymore, it is good to know we still have friends around us who we can talk out truly. You know these people will be around to hold you on when you are down. Something that money cannot buy. Priceless.

Everybody has a different character, it's that sparks that connect us together. I always believe that there are so many billions of people on this earth and we are fated to be friends or lover, we must not take each other for granted. I am still learning to appreciate people, learning to be true, to be sincere, honest with feelings. We do not know what will happen tomorrow, so I want to be expressive to my friends, to my family, my lover, to tell you I love you all in case I do not have chance anymore. Life is short, I do not want to waste it or have any regrets.

爱过知情重
醉过知酒浓
花开花谢终是空
缘份不停留像春风来又走

Maybe you guys will think I am too free to think of all these things, but I did list down my top ten friends you know. hahaha... You should know if you are in the list. But if you are not in top ten, maybe you are top 15 leh... hahaha...

Yeah!!! So excited we are finally going for the HK trip. First time with friends (without lover). Bee, although I wish you can come with me. Nevermind, I am looking forward to our dream trip, you promise that you will bring me to see Plum Blossom :)

A very pleasant surprise, I met my BMT buddy who I have lost touch so many years! Someone who I still truly respect, because he has given me so much support when I was so down during my BMT. Thank you buddy!

Love all those oldies songs from 凤飞飞，邓丽君. These are really songs that you wont get tired of listening and somemore so meaningful but humble. And it brings me lots of memories. I know I like to think... like you guys say I always 2046... sometimes its a good thing too you know. When I was down, I recall all the good memories, and it makes me smile, it reminds me to be positive and keeps me going.

Good Night

I love the weather tonight, so cooling, so december. Cool breeze blowing onto my face from my kitchen window, as if it is end of the year now.

It has been so long sinced I have a great and relaxing night. Lying lazily on the floor, watching one of my favourite dvds "Kate and Leopard". A very peaceful night to spend. Too bad I was feeling really sleepy after a long day work today, despite my laundry still in the washing machine, I have to switch off the tv half way through the show and took a short nap on my cozy and cooling bed. Fell asleep so quickly, when I still have a list of to-do-lists running through my head.

Most importantly, tonight you made me smile again, smiled deeply from my heart. Everything will be so perfect... if you were here tonight.

就向流星许个心愿, 让你知道我爱你

我要控制我自己

不会让谁看见我哭泣

装作漠不关心你

不愿想起你

怪自己没有勇气

心痛得无法呼吸

找不到你留下的痕迹

眼睁睁的看着你

却无能为力

任你消失在世界的尽头

找不到坚强的理由

再也感觉不到你的温柔

告诉我星空在那头

那里是否有尽头

Sisteration

Tonight was another nice little gathering. It has been so long since we have talked about introducing Justin and Irvin to Jackie, Thomas and Derrick. Still yet to meet out 3rd sister, Melvin. Finally to get to know each other last week. Yeah! Now we have more common friends. It was great! And of coz Mahjong kakis too...

It was a great night.Am looking forward to another great outing with you guys!

A little mood swing

Yesterday was all gloomy day... all started with my nuisance sms early in the morning. I was holding back already knowing that I will make you unhappy but I still cannot resist to send out that sms... just becoz of that "breathe" （咽不下的一口气）This time there is no argument, I guess like you said, we have been over this issue again and again. Already nothing to debate or comfort anymore. We both have our own point of view and for the rest of the day, it was silence.



All is back to normal today. The sun is out shining, rainbow after the rain. A nice surprise too, u sms me that you are back home after ur gym. hmm... u have not done that for a long long time. *happy*



If you notice, the weather these two days are the exact opposite from our mood :)