I always wish that both our families can have a little gathering. My wish was granted tonight but it turned out to be a miserable one. I know you and your parents will blame me for my stupid suggestion. I really am feeling very very very bad. I just want a happy family that's all.
I know you wont want to be disturbed now. Hope you rest well tonight.
I miss you very very very much :(
Hope to see you soon.
Tuesday, February 20, 2007
Sunday, February 18, 2007
HAPPY LUNAR NEW YEAR
For the first time in my life, I did not spend my night infront of the tv watching chinese new year countdown program. It's quite a rollercoaster ride for me tonight. Guess I hate knowing the fact that there is another person in your life right now. I wish life is much more simpler.
BEE, thank you for all your assurance. I will wait for fate to prove that we have a good life ahead.
HAPPY NEW YEAR
BEE, thank you for all your assurance. I will wait for fate to prove that we have a good life ahead.
HAPPY NEW YEAR
Saturday, February 17, 2007
Leave me alone
I just wanna be alone tonight. I just want to isolate myself. I'm freaking tired of everything in this world. Dun ever ask me why.
Post Reunion Dinner
Tonight's dinner ended quite early compared to past years. Doesnt seems as bad as I think. Seems like I was the one who talked the most.
Wanted to take a nap after dinner but din want to put my phone to discreet in case BEE calls. Ended up I was awoken by all the new year greetings sms every few mintues. Now I feel even more tired.
Wanted to take a nap after dinner but din want to put my phone to discreet in case BEE calls. Ended up I was awoken by all the new year greetings sms every few mintues. Now I feel even more tired.
Reunion Dinner
Everything is set, food are all ready. Just waiting to start dinner.
Once again, it is the time of the year, reunion dinner, the most uneasy moment of the year for me. Because I am eating with my family, people who really do not know me. They do not know who I really am. As usual, Mom will spend half the day cooking, the other half preparing new year stuff, and ended up soooooo tired. Dad, will go temple before midnight, and these few years mom expect me to follow him there, because I'm grown up. And I hate the journey, because Dad and I really do not have much to talk about. Of course I cant leave out our beloved auntie, who do nothing throughout the year, and do nothing much during new year reunion dinner, except giving all her naive and unproductive ideas and irrelevant chit chat topic. I wish Sis and Family can be here, so all the attention will be diverted to my cute niece and nephew.
I am so so so moody. I have been thinking of BEE, miss you so much. I only wish to be with you, that's all. Probably a reunion dinner I look forward is with BEE's Parents and My Parents and both of us, eating happily.
I guess this wont be happening in the near future, or maybe not at all.
HAPPY NEW YEAR to whoever reading this blog. Wish you happy and healthy throughout the year! :)
Once again, it is the time of the year, reunion dinner, the most uneasy moment of the year for me. Because I am eating with my family, people who really do not know me. They do not know who I really am. As usual, Mom will spend half the day cooking, the other half preparing new year stuff, and ended up soooooo tired. Dad, will go temple before midnight, and these few years mom expect me to follow him there, because I'm grown up. And I hate the journey, because Dad and I really do not have much to talk about. Of course I cant leave out our beloved auntie, who do nothing throughout the year, and do nothing much during new year reunion dinner, except giving all her naive and unproductive ideas and irrelevant chit chat topic. I wish Sis and Family can be here, so all the attention will be diverted to my cute niece and nephew.
I am so so so moody. I have been thinking of BEE, miss you so much. I only wish to be with you, that's all. Probably a reunion dinner I look forward is with BEE's Parents and My Parents and both of us, eating happily.
I guess this wont be happening in the near future, or maybe not at all.
HAPPY NEW YEAR to whoever reading this blog. Wish you happy and healthy throughout the year! :)
Lunar New Year Eve
Today is consider the last day in the chinese calender. As usual, all the shops will operate half day. Left BEE's hse after a good lunch that BEE bought me, went for haircut. Feeling better now.
As usual, helped mom with the praying stuff, burning of joss paper, preparation for reunion dinner. As age catches up, really do not have the mood to celebrate chinese new year especially when family size reduces since sis got married. Then first day of new year have to drag ourselve to visit some relatives, everyone will ask the same questions. So fake. This year, I did not shop for any new year clothings at all. Anyway I have the cute lion dance tee that BEE bought me from Thailand. Still have a pair of jeans and shoes that is totally new, also bought by BEE. Second day of new year got to work.
Really looking forward to the day BEE and I have our own home. I believe we will be so much happier than our current situation. :)
As usual, helped mom with the praying stuff, burning of joss paper, preparation for reunion dinner. As age catches up, really do not have the mood to celebrate chinese new year especially when family size reduces since sis got married. Then first day of new year have to drag ourselve to visit some relatives, everyone will ask the same questions. So fake. This year, I did not shop for any new year clothings at all. Anyway I have the cute lion dance tee that BEE bought me from Thailand. Still have a pair of jeans and shoes that is totally new, also bought by BEE. Second day of new year got to work.
Really looking forward to the day BEE and I have our own home. I believe we will be so much happier than our current situation. :)
Wednesday, February 14, 2007
HAPPY VALENTINE'S DAY BEE
My Dearest Bee,
I really really appreciate you spending time with me on all my off days. We have been creating memorable histories in our relationship. You made me realised and experienced what treasuring each other means. I am so fortunate to have you in my life and thank you for always protecting me like a real man. I need you so much and I just cant live a day without you. Be assured that I would never want to take back my heart from you and I will keep yours safe and well protected with me.
Please treasure all the things I have made for you, every single one of them consists of my true love, sincerity and most importantly, with exchange for many hours of sleep to complete. Knowing you well, I know you will keep them properly. If one day when I am not in this world anymore, they are still around to keep you company. Of coz I do not want this to happen as I want to be living with you till the end of time. Remember our promise that we will go for a body check up together ok? We'll plan this soon, for the good of our future. If we do not take good care of our health, why shall we bother to work so hard going through this tough time?
Till the next time we meet, promise you take good care of yourself.
I LOVE YOU MY VALENTINE! :)
I really really appreciate you spending time with me on all my off days. We have been creating memorable histories in our relationship. You made me realised and experienced what treasuring each other means. I am so fortunate to have you in my life and thank you for always protecting me like a real man. I need you so much and I just cant live a day without you. Be assured that I would never want to take back my heart from you and I will keep yours safe and well protected with me.
Please treasure all the things I have made for you, every single one of them consists of my true love, sincerity and most importantly, with exchange for many hours of sleep to complete. Knowing you well, I know you will keep them properly. If one day when I am not in this world anymore, they are still around to keep you company. Of coz I do not want this to happen as I want to be living with you till the end of time. Remember our promise that we will go for a body check up together ok? We'll plan this soon, for the good of our future. If we do not take good care of our health, why shall we bother to work so hard going through this tough time?
Till the next time we meet, promise you take good care of yourself.
I LOVE YOU MY VALENTINE! :)
Tuesday, February 6, 2007
Can't get enough of YOU
It was another happy day together with you. Really really wish we had more time to spend together. But I guess even if we had one whole day it won't be enough too.
Today you asked me to compare you and my ex. Although by default, I definitely will say I enjoy your company more. But honestly honestly honestly, YOU are still the correct answer. I have no doubt we can get along really well together (as a couple), even if we have different hobbies and lifestyle. Comparing to the past, I can feel that you really trust me now and are not faking it. It is your little worries of whether anybody cruises me and safety of me crossing the road that makes me feel so warm inside.
You know recently I have been feeling so empty on days when you are not around me. My heart feels heavy. But you made it all up when I am with you. I can tell you are making effort to make me feel good. Thank you BEE. I hope we can keep this energy till we grow old.
You know I am so afraid of losing you. Looking forward to the day when we can see Light again.
Today you asked me to compare you and my ex. Although by default, I definitely will say I enjoy your company more. But honestly honestly honestly, YOU are still the correct answer. I have no doubt we can get along really well together (as a couple), even if we have different hobbies and lifestyle. Comparing to the past, I can feel that you really trust me now and are not faking it. It is your little worries of whether anybody cruises me and safety of me crossing the road that makes me feel so warm inside.
You know recently I have been feeling so empty on days when you are not around me. My heart feels heavy. But you made it all up when I am with you. I can tell you are making effort to make me feel good. Thank you BEE. I hope we can keep this energy till we grow old.
You know I am so afraid of losing you. Looking forward to the day when we can see Light again.
Thursday, February 1, 2007
Catch a star
1st Feb.... so fast, it's already the second month of the new year. And one more month left my probation will be over. Work has been good, this company definitely encorages us to play hard too. Today the company just celebrated with those whose birthday is in Jan and Feb. That including mine.
Maybe it sounds kinda contradicting but this week, time seems to pass slowly. Maybe becoz I was feeling tired most of the time. Worse, my waistline has been expanding. I better watch out.
Tonight is so windy. It brings me to the mood again. Wish I am standing on top of the hill, with my baybee, enjoying the cold breeze. It makes me feel like running away with my baybee, to somewhere far far away. Away from all the hypocrites, away from all these colourful lifestyle. Just live a simple life, just the two of us. Maybe Bee cant, becoz he gets tired of things easily. If he faces me everyday, he'll be so bored and sleepy, one day he might just run away from me.
Dunno when will I be able to travel again.
Havent been to the cinema.... think the last time was in Nov.
Dunno what the future will be like.... Of coz I'm hoping things to turn out well, on the other hand, I'm so afraid of all the false hopes in life again. Even tho ppl say, no hope, no disappointment. But then, without dreams, what is the meaning of life? Contradicting!
Hate waiting without deadline.
Maybe it sounds kinda contradicting but this week, time seems to pass slowly. Maybe becoz I was feeling tired most of the time. Worse, my waistline has been expanding. I better watch out.
Tonight is so windy. It brings me to the mood again. Wish I am standing on top of the hill, with my baybee, enjoying the cold breeze. It makes me feel like running away with my baybee, to somewhere far far away. Away from all the hypocrites, away from all these colourful lifestyle. Just live a simple life, just the two of us. Maybe Bee cant, becoz he gets tired of things easily. If he faces me everyday, he'll be so bored and sleepy, one day he might just run away from me.
Dunno when will I be able to travel again.
Havent been to the cinema.... think the last time was in Nov.
Dunno what the future will be like.... Of coz I'm hoping things to turn out well, on the other hand, I'm so afraid of all the false hopes in life again. Even tho ppl say, no hope, no disappointment. But then, without dreams, what is the meaning of life? Contradicting!
Hate waiting without deadline.
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